Sad F Real

Anti-social, not serious, never gives, liar, not good at explaining, not good at talking,
just wants to feel cared for, just wants people to know she's trying and that her feeling this way isn't their fault, doesn't want to be given up on, doesn't want to talk about how she feels because it has a negative effect on the people she cares about, doesn't matter, knows people are trying hard but doesn't want to become a chore, thinks she doesn't need help, doesn't accept it, doesn't know what to do, doesn't want to be alone.
Feels alone.

Cares about the people that care for her, but doesn't know how to show it. Scared to show her feelings because she doesn't want to upset them or make them think it's her fault.
Tries her best to make her friends happy and help them feel better when they are sad. Tries her best to talk to people.

Worried, stressed, addicted, cynical, clingy, hateful, knows fat isn't bad but for some reason it's bad for her, doesn't know much about anything-even her few interests, hates eating, prude, a chore.

Is made of bad traits.
Useless, good for nothing, impatient, misinterpreting.

P.S if you think I'm attention whoring, fuck you. For one, it's not bad to want attention, two, it's not a goddamn crime to feel like shit and say so. Three, I couldn't care less if no one commented or what the fuck ever.
This is for me, not for you.

Vent.